행복이란 Thing called happiness

This is the lyrics of a song from "Boys Before Flower"/ Korean version of F4. A remake by Kim Hyun Joong(SS501) of a 70s song. It's a simple love song that is nice to listen to. ^_^ am currently addicted to this drama xD.

행복이 무엇인지 알수는 없잖아요 i can't know what happiness is
당신없는 행복이란 있을수없잖아요 there can't be a happiness without you
이생명 다바쳐서 당신을 사랑하리 offering up all of this life, i love you
이목숨 다바쳐서 영원히 사랑하리 devoting all of this life, i love you forever

이별만은 말아줘요 내곁에 있어줘요 just don't do farewells.. just be by my side
당신없는 행복이란 있을수 없잖아요 there can't be a happiness without you

사랑은 중한것도 이제는 알았어요 i now know that love is an important thing
당신없는 사랑이란 있을수 없잖아요 there can't be love without you
이생명 다바쳐서 당신을 사랑하리 offering up all of this life, i love you
이목숨 다바쳐서 영원히 사랑하리 devoting all of this life, i love you forever
이별만은 말아줘요 내곁에 있어줘요 just don't do farewells.. just be by my side
당신없는 행복이란 있을수 없잖아요 there can't be love without you be by my side

April fool used to be just a simple day without any surprise for me. It's just a normal day like any other day. Nevertheless, it was special this year. Didn't know how he got those naughty ideas but was touched by it.

That night before april fool, we were together after my trial. He waited me for dinner until around 9.30. After dinner, he dragged me to the basketball court. We chatted until around 12. Then he suddenly ask, "Will you marry me?". After that, he said I've prepared something then took the red box out. He told me not to open it until i give him the answer. I was shocked but happy and touched. Anxious to see the ring, I fought with him to open the box, just to see a dairy milk chocolate inside >.<. Later on, he tricked me again with some other stupid story. T_T was saddened by that story though.

Anyways, the next day, we went midvalley together and he bought me a real ring at last. Although I wanted a more economical one, it was a memorable ring as it has both our names carved on the inner ring. =)

Thank you so much for the presents and surprises. As I've said, whether I accept or not, I won't return the ring wakaka.

Anyways, sorry for making you felt neglected today. Even if I've found a lot of reason to cover it up, I can't deny the fact that I've actually forgotten to care about your feelings when I walked away. I was selfish, taking the whole thing to be "me, me, me". In fact, I've taken you for granted for a lot of time. Making you wait for me every time we go out was the worst habit I've been so used to. Really sorry for not caring about your feelings. =( And thank you also, for treating me ice cream after getting mad at me >.<. It was silly, but cute. =P With you, I can always feel the thing called happiness. =D

Tomodachi =)

It has been a really long time I didn't talk with my best friends from hometown, I mean group chatting. Yesterday was the first time after several months that I've talked to yoohye and jeongjeong 3 of us tgt. Sujin was missing in action. =P Miss those moments we had so much!!T__T Anywayz, was complained yst coz I always blog about someone but not them. Then I was watching drama while my test is on next thursday then jeongjeong was so stern "dun regret, got test still watch drama, should change..." ...huhu >.<;;; So here I am~~gonna write about us today...hehe^^

Well, yst chat was kinda short and a bit funny coz I was soo blur and out of their friend circle now. They were talking about a guy in their class but I just know him for the name and nothing else. Then later I suddenly pop out saying something unrelated then here comes again our "irrelevant chat". We talked about some topic then suddenly one of us will pop out with sth really unrelated. It was so funny as yoohye is still as sarcastic as ever =P and with jeongjeong's weird japanese-style tamil. >.<;; Then yoohye asked me abt the story that me, sujin and her once wrote tgt. Too bad i stopped writing and didn't continue it for very long time, i think already for years now it's been on a hiatus @@. Gonna dig it all out again and try to continue it since she requested. Huhu. Drained of ideas now...T__T

Tomodachi wa nani? Someone that can always stand by your side and listen to you whenever you're down and be happy for you when you're happy. Even if we're far apart, the tie will never be cut. Even if I did not mention u guyz always, you're always an important part in my life neh! Thanks so much for being my frens!=) And of course for all my other frenss too~~u guys really mean a lot to me! And so sorry if I've neglected anyone of u and for being a bad fren...

Finished my drama "zettai kareshi(absolute boyfriend)" yst...It was sooo sad at the end...T__T me and my friend cried so much for that...>.< Dat drama is really very nice~~sugoii!! thanx to Ika who recommended it to me~~^^ Then today gonna watch slumdog millionaire later~after I finish doing my presentation slides...Wahhh...presentation and socio test tgt on next thursday!! Must gambatte! =P Ja ne!

矛盾。。。彷徨。。。

最近都比较喜欢用华语写东西、表达想法。。。
也许是这样比较容易传达出心里的话。。。

最近，开始不懂自己在忙什么，渴望什么，甚至在做什么。。。
就是一味随性地过日子。。。
不喜欢，我本来就只喜欢规律的日子。。。
却总想让自己放纵。。。
处女座，有个缺点。。。
她，总会在放纵自己以后，
无聊地自责，因觉得不应该、不完美而产生罪恶感、不满足。。。

害怕。。。当失去了避风港以后该往哪儿逃？
很担心。。。其实真的很担心。。。大学几时才接受我？
有时却宁愿装作不懂有这回事。。。装作不懂这是短短几个月后的事。。。或说这只是多余的担心。。。。
你也许不懂，每一次在一起，我最喜欢抱着你什么都不想，把烦恼都抛开。。。
你也许不懂，每一次，我常会呆呆望着你很怕你不在身边时我会怎样。。。
总想在分离之际把你留下，我很自私吧？
以后不远了，所以真的要开始适应分离。。。

很感谢。。。总是在我身边的你。。
还有关怀我的所有人。。
有家人的关心，朋友们的陪伴。。。其实就该满足~
今天，不懂为什么忽然想到父母怎么养大我们五个就觉得好了不起。。。
很少会去想，父母曾经也是年轻人，
从情侣变夫妻后，
在变成父母，
那些角色更换的过程肯定不容易。。。
需要多少耐心与那份爱心。。。
在养育孩子的过程中又需要多少用心呢？
从一个啥都不懂的小婴儿变成青少年，
那是要费多少心思去培育的呢？
想到就觉得那绝对是一件不简单的事~>.<

哭了。。。是为了把压抑着的情绪给释放。。。
哭后。。。就该像雨过天晴般开心起来！
可是明天还有考试~~要读书了。。。呼呼。。。这怎么能开心起来？
算了吧。。。还是啃书去吧。。。T___T

鞋子

第一天来到这个世界，
是赤裸裸的，
身上没有衣物，
小小的脚上也没有穿鞋子。。。

还是婴儿的时候，
穿的是布鞋、袜子。。。
会走路了以后，
开始有不同的鞋子，
拖鞋、包鞋、运动鞋、高跟鞋。。。
鞋子，穿在脚上，
陪我们踏出我们生命里的每一步，
走过了一个又一个人生故事，
随着季节的变换，
与我们结伴度过漫长的岁月。。。

有人说，
送鞋子给恋人意味着送他走。。。
所以不可以送鞋子。。。
然而，我却发现了送鞋子的另一个含义，
当彼此互相送鞋子。。。
这意味着，我会一直陪你走下去。。。

Worst biggest "suprise"

I'm dead. SO DEAD. today is my socio mid-term and i just simply don't know anything about it until i reach my classroom. there and then, i had the test, wrote all 3 essay questions with common sense and things i remembered from his lesson. It was extremely awful. T__T First ever time to have such an experience in my life. Haiz. another friend of mine also didn't heard of the test but the rest of our classmates do know about it one week ago. how on earth can this happen to both of us?>.< Sad~~~=(

Now all I can do is to pray that he gives at least some marks to the 3 essays which I've simply crapped out. >.< haiz. hope this will not...NO..this shall not ever ever happen again~~T.T

lovesss choir!

woohoo~~finally it's over!!^^V

never thought that I can enjoy the harmony in choir again after high school~=)
today, we finally made it. It's a true choir, even though it's still a "new-born baby".
and what that has really amazed me is that it took us just a short time to finish harmonizing the 3 main voices: soprano, alto and bass. The practice started last week but I've just been there once, by that time we had just started to learn the song. Later on, two days ago, our first attempt to sing to our officer was a big failure. She was totally disappointed with us.>.< then we started practice afterwards and got the song done in an hour. To my surprise, we did manage to harmonize pretty well!^^ perhaps it was bcoz we are just chamber choir and we can coordinate more easily compared to big choir which I used to join during secondary school. Anywayz, it is a joy to be in a good choir! =)

only 1 thing that i really hate about this is punctuality. It's so sad. I've been twice to the practices and for that 2 times, I was the first few to get there and have to wait for around 15 mins for whole thing to start. It's really frustrating and somemore today we were the last few to perform and before that we were there pretty early and havta wait for a few hours. well, I really hate to be the last to perform...it's just a waste of time and energy T.T~how good if we can juz get there and get on the stage and get everything done so we can do some other things rather than waiting and rotting there. @@

miss my secondary school choir a lot~~and really had fun performing just now!=D hopefully our college choir will grow and continue to give even better performances ^^. I wasn't suppose to blog now coz i have my music appreciation mid-term tmr~~>.< adios bloggie~ T.T good luck to all who are having exams tmr~~

Don't Say Goodbye...

Don't Say Goodbye...Coz you're my everything...

今天，
看了朋友的FB和部落格，
有个分手了，有个与他的她分隔两地。。。
真的，偶尔会想，未来会是如何？

未来，
我们都会飞到那个对我们而言都很陌生的地方，
未来，
我们也许，应该很可能，会各奔东西，
到时，我们会如何？

如果分离，
泪流完了，伤痛一定会走开吗？
说不定思念会把它挽留。。。
如果分离，
要和新友人度过每一天，
吃饭、读书、血拼、看电影、聊天。。。
没有你的日子，
会习惯吗？

还好。。。
我们能在一起的时间还多。。。
但那天还是会来的。。。
现在，就好好珍惜每分每秒在一起的时光吧~(^o^)V

Ehehe...the first part of this blog in chinese is written in the afternoon then i thought the title of this song of tvxq suited it so i added it into this blog~~@@ it's been some times that i'm off from my fangirlism~~lost that part of me since dunno when...>.< then i guess it's 25% back in me today~~^^ now i'm not so much into watching variety show and mvs but only listening to songs.

No dear jade. they are NOT just goodlooking singers i believe. =P coz even by listening and only listening i still find them good bleek.=PP Finally downloaded "don't say goodbye" today and songs from bolero single. Nice songs!^_^ here's the lyrics <3

Don't Say Goodbye by TVXQ

눈 맞추지 못하는 Can't meet your sight
그댈 읽을 수 없죠 Can't read your heart
길을 잃어버린 아이 같아서 Like a kid who lost his way
기다리고만 있죠 I can only wait silently
어떤 말을 할건지 What more can I say
사실 난 알고 있죠 I have already known the truth
진심이 아닌걸 눈치 챈걸요 You're hiding the expression in your eyes
That's not what you mean
눈물이 말하잖아요 Your tears told everything
Don't say goodbye
그 손을 놓지 말라는 마음이 들려요 Heard your heart saying," don't let go of my hands"
그대 맘이 들려요 아직 나만을 원하죠 Heard your heart saying, "you still need me now"
그댄 숨길 수 없죠 You don't know how to hide
그댄 거짓말을 못하죠 You can't learn to lie

허락할 수 없어요 I won't allow
헤어지잔 거짓말 Lie telling me that you want to breakup
눈을 보고 말해봐요 Look in my eyes and tell me
아니잖아요 It's not like that
진심 아니잖아요 That is not true from the bottom of your heart
Don't say goodbye
그 손을 놓지 말라는 마음이 들려요 Heard your heart saying, "don't let go of my hands"
그대 맘이 들려요 Heart your heart saying
세상이 등 돌려도 힘든 사랑이라도 Even if it's a love that reverse the world
You are my love
You are my soul
Don't say goodbye
Don't leave me now oh yeah
함께 나눈 약속이 The promise that we made together
내겐 전부인걸요 Is my everything

Don't say goodbye
You are my everything to me
지친 내 하루는 항상 그댈 찾겠죠 Exhausted me, always finding you for a whole day
마르지 않는 샘처럼 Like spring water that will never get dried up
그댈 사랑할께요 I will always love you
You are my love
(You are my love)
You are my soul
(You are my soul)
Don't say goodbye
You are the only one for me
없었던 일처럼 오늘이 또 지나면 Exhausted me, always looking for you in a day
서로 맘을 놓지 않고 Never give up on each other
모두 이겨내겠죠 We can overcome everything
Cause you are my everything to me
Cause you are my everything to me