Tomodachi =)

It has been a really long time I didn't talk with my best friends from hometown, I mean group chatting. Yesterday was the first time after several months that I've talked to yoohye and jeongjeong 3 of us tgt. Sujin was missing in action. =P Miss those moments we had so much!!T__T Anywayz, was complained yst coz I always blog about someone but not them. Then I was watching drama while my test is on next thursday then jeongjeong was so stern "dun regret, got test still watch drama, should change..." ...huhu >.<;;; So here I am~~gonna write about us today...hehe^^

Well, yst chat was kinda short and a bit funny coz I was soo blur and out of their friend circle now. They were talking about a guy in their class but I just know him for the name and nothing else. Then later I suddenly pop out saying something unrelated then here comes again our "irrelevant chat". We talked about some topic then suddenly one of us will pop out with sth really unrelated. It was so funny as yoohye is still as sarcastic as ever =P and with jeongjeong's weird japanese-style tamil. >.<;; Then yoohye asked me abt the story that me, sujin and her once wrote tgt. Too bad i stopped writing and didn't continue it for very long time, i think already for years now it's been on a hiatus @@. Gonna dig it all out again and try to continue it since she requested. Huhu. Drained of ideas now...T__T

Tomodachi wa nani? Someone that can always stand by your side and listen to you whenever you're down and be happy for you when you're happy. Even if we're far apart, the tie will never be cut. Even if I did not mention u guyz always, you're always an important part in my life neh! Thanks so much for being my frens!=) And of course for all my other frenss too~~u guys really mean a lot to me! And so sorry if I've neglected anyone of u and for being a bad fren...

Finished my drama "zettai kareshi(absolute boyfriend)" yst...It was sooo sad at the end...T__T me and my friend cried so much for that...>.< Dat drama is really very nice~~sugoii!! thanx to Ika who recommended it to me~~^^ Then today gonna watch slumdog millionaire later~after I finish doing my presentation slides...Wahhh...presentation and socio test tgt on next thursday!! Must gambatte! =P Ja ne!

矛盾。。。彷徨。。。

最近都比较喜欢用华语写东西、表达想法。。。
也许是这样比较容易传达出心里的话。。。

最近，开始不懂自己在忙什么，渴望什么，甚至在做什么。。。
就是一味随性地过日子。。。
不喜欢，我本来就只喜欢规律的日子。。。
却总想让自己放纵。。。
处女座，有个缺点。。。
她，总会在放纵自己以后，
无聊地自责，因觉得不应该、不完美而产生罪恶感、不满足。。。

害怕。。。当失去了避风港以后该往哪儿逃？
很担心。。。其实真的很担心。。。大学几时才接受我？
有时却宁愿装作不懂有这回事。。。装作不懂这是短短几个月后的事。。。或说这只是多余的担心。。。。
你也许不懂，每一次在一起，我最喜欢抱着你什么都不想，把烦恼都抛开。。。
你也许不懂，每一次，我常会呆呆望着你很怕你不在身边时我会怎样。。。
总想在分离之际把你留下，我很自私吧？
以后不远了，所以真的要开始适应分离。。。

很感谢。。。总是在我身边的你。。
还有关怀我的所有人。。
有家人的关心，朋友们的陪伴。。。其实就该满足~
今天，不懂为什么忽然想到父母怎么养大我们五个就觉得好了不起。。。
很少会去想，父母曾经也是年轻人，
从情侣变夫妻后，
在变成父母，
那些角色更换的过程肯定不容易。。。
需要多少耐心与那份爱心。。。
在养育孩子的过程中又需要多少用心呢？
从一个啥都不懂的小婴儿变成青少年，
那是要费多少心思去培育的呢？
想到就觉得那绝对是一件不简单的事~>.<

哭了。。。是为了把压抑着的情绪给释放。。。
哭后。。。就该像雨过天晴般开心起来！
可是明天还有考试~~要读书了。。。呼呼。。。这怎么能开心起来？
算了吧。。。还是啃书去吧。。。T___T

鞋子

第一天来到这个世界，
是赤裸裸的，
身上没有衣物，
小小的脚上也没有穿鞋子。。。

还是婴儿的时候，
穿的是布鞋、袜子。。。
会走路了以后，
开始有不同的鞋子，
拖鞋、包鞋、运动鞋、高跟鞋。。。
鞋子，穿在脚上，
陪我们踏出我们生命里的每一步，
走过了一个又一个人生故事，
随着季节的变换，
与我们结伴度过漫长的岁月。。。

有人说，
送鞋子给恋人意味着送他走。。。
所以不可以送鞋子。。。
然而，我却发现了送鞋子的另一个含义，
当彼此互相送鞋子。。。
这意味着，我会一直陪你走下去。。。

Worst biggest "suprise"

I'm dead. SO DEAD. today is my socio mid-term and i just simply don't know anything about it until i reach my classroom. there and then, i had the test, wrote all 3 essay questions with common sense and things i remembered from his lesson. It was extremely awful. T__T First ever time to have such an experience in my life. Haiz. another friend of mine also didn't heard of the test but the rest of our classmates do know about it one week ago. how on earth can this happen to both of us?>.< Sad~~~=(

Now all I can do is to pray that he gives at least some marks to the 3 essays which I've simply crapped out. >.< haiz. hope this will not...NO..this shall not ever ever happen again~~T.T